Are You Ready To Stop Using Food as a Weapon (Against Yourself)?
I can't tell you how many times I stared at myself in the mirror and wished that I had a different body.
For most of my childhood, and up until I was nearly 30 years old, I wanted nothing more than to shrink out of my own skin.
I wanted to erase any trace of humanity from my skin--to be airbrushed and "perfect".
I used food, exercise, and disordered eating habits to lose weight and keep my negative thoughts at bay.
I couldn't even go out to eat without obsessing about how many calories were in each bite I took.
I would live my life around my "cheat" day, but even that day brought up feelings of guilt, shame, and remorse.
I was binging and purging more often than ever, and my health was beginning to suffer.
Eventually, I was sick of being sick. I wanted more from my own life.
I didn't want to pass these horrible habits of self-loathing and self-abuse on to my future children.
I sought treatment.
I got better.
I stayed better (eleven years later, I'm still better!).
I turned my illness into a passion. I started talking to everyone about my eating disorder.
People got uncomfortable.
I didn't care.
I kept talking.
I wanted to help other women break this cycle for their own health and the health of their children.
Their future children.
Their children's children.
I started to mentor other women. Changing one single life for the better was all I wanted.
I changed one.
Now, I want to change yours.
Do it for yourself.
Your children's children.
But just do it.
You deserve it.