Are You Ready To Stop Using Food as a Weapon (Against Yourself)?

 
 

I can't tell you how many times I stared at myself in the mirror and wished that I had a different body. 

For most of my childhood, and up until I was nearly 30 years old, I wanted nothing more than to shrink out of my own skin.

I wanted to erase any trace of humanity from my skin--to be airbrushed and "perfect".

I used food, exercise, and disordered eating habits to lose weight and keep my negative thoughts at bay.

I couldn't even go out to eat without obsessing about how many calories were in each bite I took.

I would live my life around my "cheat" day, but even that day brought up feelings of guilt, shame, and remorse.

I was binging and purging more often than ever, and my health was beginning to suffer.

Eventually, I was sick of being sick. I wanted more from my own life.

I didn't want to pass these horrible habits of self-loathing and self-abuse on to my future children.

I sought treatment.

I got better.

I stayed better (eleven years later, I'm still better!).

I turned my illness into a passion. I started talking to everyone about my eating disorder.

People got uncomfortable.

I didn't care.

I kept talking.

I wanted to help other women break this cycle for their own health and the health of their children. 

Their future children.

Their children's children.  

I started to mentor other women. Changing one single life for the better was all I wanted.

I changed one.

And another.

And another.

Now, I want to change yours.

Do it for yourself.

Your children.

Your children's children.

But just do it.

You deserve it.